Monday, 3/23/09 – Morning

133lbs. Not the direction I want to go. I knew there was going to be a day of reckoning and this is it. After all, what did I expect after a weekend of socializing, eating, drinking and repeat. It started Friday at work, when I found myself wandering over to the candy guy about 4pm. He gave me a big dark chocolate candy bar and before I knew it I had finished almost the whole thing.

That night we had my in-laws over for dinner to celebrate my father-in-law’s birthday. More drinking, eating and cake to top it off. Saturday night we had some friends over and repeated the whole cycle. On Sunday, we went to see my grandfather (he’s 95, God bless him) and I sampled a few cookies , nuts and chips that were in the house. So clearly, I haven’t gotten on top of the ‘overeating in a social situation’ scenario and I didn’t journal like I said I was going to do.

I’ve been thinking of my girlfriend that we had over on Saturday. During the past year-and-a-half she’s lost about 117lbs. She’s also fortunate to have the means to pay for a boob job and tummy tuck to deal with the loose skin. The liposuction on the legs will come later – the doctors didn’t want to do it all at once. This was the first time I saw her after the surgery and she looks fantastic. I guess the reason I’m thinking about her is if she can lose 117lbs, why can’t I wrap my brain around losing 15lbs?

Monday, 3/23/09 – Evening

Success. I feel good. I journaled all day, but what’s more important is that I didn’t eat any candy. About 5pm I started to feel the craving, but I was able to quell it. When I got home, I made good choices and ended up eating about 23 Weight Watchers points which is within my point range. So, I feel good.

I think the lesson for me is to ‘not break the seal’. Once I allow myself one handful of MnM’s, its hard not to go back for a second and third helping.

Tuesday, 3/24/09 – Morning

I’m not going to weigh myself this morning, but I feel lighter already after making good food choices yesterday. I’ll workout soon and then be on my way to work.

Tuesday, 3/24/09 – Evening

Another successful day! It feels good. I stayed away from the candy dishes and stayed within my points. Not to say that it was easy – it wasn’t. Right around 3:30 my candy dish radar perked up and I was so tempted to just have one. I looked at the clock at 3:30 and I remember thinking to myself, “This is primetime for candy eating. This fits the pattern.” In fact, anytime between 2pm until I leave work are my witching hours. I looked at my food journal and decided to eat a banana that I brought from home.

I think the most important thing that happened today was that I became aware. The act of looking at the clock and recognizing that the pattern was beginning was enough for me to become aware and make a different choice. This is much different than the usual mental fog that takes over when I succumb to my candy cravings.